Hmmmm. Wish I could help you but I can't. When things have gone sideways for me in the past, I normally listen to music that drags me further down the rabbit hole... Music can be a blessing as well as a curse.
Sometimes I find dark, violent music to be quite theraputic, but I don't think you wanna listen to that stuff.
Of every one hundred men, ten should not even be here. Eighty are nothing but targets. Nine are real fighters, and we are lucky to have them, for they make the battle. Ah, but the One... One of them is a Warrior... He will bring the others back.
"Wrong door, buddy!"
Let no man's ghost say my training failed him.