
Originally Posted by
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It never ceases to amaze me when people ask how something in their past is going to affect them and then imply they're going to continue to do it. People who have smoked pot, drank underage, etc. and want to know if it will affect them are one thing--they did those things prior to considering the career and now have to deal with the consequences (which may, depending on frequency of the occurrence, etc. DQ them from their dream). Just goes to show of course that how you conduct yourself today carries on to tomorrow.
We've all made mistakes. I've often heard it said on here that "we're not looking for angels; we're looking for people who can be honest about their mistakes." We've all got *something* in our background that's going to give us concern, that could hold us back. The issue isn't always what you did but how you have handled yourself since having done that and how likely you are to repeat the behavior in the future.
The problem I see from your post is that, unlike some people, you know you want to get into law enforcement. And what you're doing is not owning up to your mistakes and saying it won't happen from here on out; what you're doing is making noncommittal statements about "trying your best" not to do something you already know is both foolish and illegal. You're trying to see how much you can get away with and still get hired, and that's the aspect that doesn't behoove you. Is that then how you'll conduct yourself on the job? Will you push the boundaries and try to get away with as much as possible without getting fired?
Consider the fact that some departments are more lenient than others regarding drug use. Some won't allow pot smoking within a year of employment, others say five years or more, and all seem to generally agree anything more than a handful of times is habitual rather than experimental and grounds for DQ (which by the way, consider that you're 16 now. Even if you quit today you couldn't be hired til you're 19 in my local SO, which means you can kiss it goodbye til you're at least 21 if you wait til you're 18 to quit). Even in those departments which are more lax, they have an additional qualification that anyone who has smoked pot, etc. after having been hired by a law enforcement agency, regardless of how long it's been since the last incident, are auto DQ.
While you haven't gotten hired by an agency and continued the illegal practices, I can't imagine you'll be looked at much more favorably since, like the hired officer, you've decided you want to uphold the law and are breaking it (on what sounds like a regular basis). Let the mistakes you've made in the past be the mistakes you made in the past and learn from them. But from here on out, if you really want to take the responsibility of a job in law enforcement, then you need to take the responsibility to stop the things you're doing which do not fall in line with the character you're going to need to have to have a career in law enforcement. If you can't/won't do that, then, perhaps your heart isn't as in this as you think it is and you'll want to look into other career paths.