Cutting to the chase...I have had some eating disorder problems and some mild anxiety problems in the past. Never been on any kind of medications, been to any kind of doctor, etc. They were really, really bad, oh, last year and the year before that. But, this year they are really starting to die down a lot. But, the thing is, I know they are not just going to "disappear." I think about them a lot so I know I am not completely over it yet.
So, my mom knew about those problems and did have me scheduled to see a counselor. Just a counselor, not a psychologist or anything. But, then she canceled. I was kind of disappointed because I'm really ready to get over it. She did this because of a heated argument I had with her a number of days before, in which I probably said some choice words I didn't necessarily mean but at the time...I was just angry. So, I find out that she canceled it because she is scared that I am going to say something to the counselor to get her into trouble for something. Sure, I probably do have somethings against her...but I wasn't planning on actually saying anything. But, she didn't actually TELL me that was the reason...that's just what I assumed because it was so close together and there was NO other reason (she wouldn't have had to pay for it or anything..) why she would have done it.
So, when I asked her about it she said she canceled it because she didn't want me to risk my chances of being in the FBI or whatever. So, I was like...why? Well, they would do a background check on me and find out that I was "crazy" and went to a shrink and they wouldn't want to hire me. Okay, yes I know that they probably don't want people who are not stable, but that's why I wanted to get over this NOW and not have it hanging around until later. But, I mean, come on! I'm just going to talk about somethings with somebody. I don't even know if going to a counselor will be put on your record..?
My question...is my mom just pulling this out of her arse so I don't "turn her in" for something? Or does she really know what she is talking about? Because, by all means, if it risks my chance of not being able to get the job I want (which is in LE..that's what I want to do so if I can't work there I have basically no other options..) Will it show up if someone is doing a background investigation or what? I just really want to know if it would be okay if I went and just worked out some of these minor problems in my life without causing harm to my future.
Thanks guys! Sorry about the longness. I'm really, really tired and I'm just kinda rambling for some reason. I need to go to bed. Ugh.


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