Well, guys, I kinda, sorta did a really stupid thing and I know that I'm going to get cyber yelled at by you guys, but I'm ready to stand up and take it. Lol.
Okay, after watching To Catch A Predator obsessively, I thought it would be a great idea to start doing something like that on my own. No, I wasn't going to set up a sting operation (DUH!) or talk to them on the phone or give the guys my picture or address or anything..just talk. It's been a while but I posted a topic a while back about what I wanted to be when I get older so please see Exhibit A: http://forums.realpolice.net/showthr...light=rapturer, if you want to read about that, I'm too lazy to write all of that out.
Anyways, so I did just that and very easily found a lot of guys to chat with me. And it's been about, oh, two months or so and most of the guys just wanted a little one-night thing. But, a couple of guys are still chatting with me.
So, I decided what I was going to do was contact someone about these guys and then eventually I wound up talking to someone from the MO Highway Patrol about it (and she even told me that she might get in contact with the FBI if we ended up working with her because the guy I was talking to at the time lived in California and wanted to go across state borders to get here and visit "me"). Talked to her one night for a while and then she told me that I had to tell my dad about it and get his permission to continue because she, as did I, understood that it was a VERY sticky situation and she didn't want me to get involved with it unless we had his permission. So, I talked to him about it and he FREAKED! Well, at first anyways. Then he kinda stopped freaking out so much and he said he would call her back and talk to her. It's been two months now and he never called her back. I asked him everyday if he would and I knew that it would be better just to forget about it and stop asking because he was never going to do it...so I lost contact with the MO Highway Patrol and haven't talked to them since.
I told my dad I'd stop talking to those guys, but then I was overwhelmed with the fact that if I let them go they would just go out there and find another girl to talk to and maybe hurt them. And I didn't want that to happen. They are obviously VERY disturbed individuals with very warped minds. They know that I said I was 14 and they still wanted to meet "me" they still wanted to have sexual intercourse with "me". They are just SICK. And they will find another girl on the internet and woo them and tell them nice things and eventually hurt them if they can.
I guess what my question is, is what in the world I should do? The obvious answer is to stop talking to them. And I'm thinking about maybe doing that, but it will be on my chest FOREVER knowing that they are out there scoping the internet and what they could have done/be doing to another young child. I was trying to think of a way where I could just give their information to someone else and they could start talking to them instead of me, that way someone is still keeping tabs on them. Or should I just let it go and hope for the best? I know that as soon as I can, whatever age that may be, probably 18, I'm going to try and start helping whoever I can to catch these guys again. Should I just wait for those two more years and then start doing it? I just wonder how much damage these guys can cause in someones life in that long time? Ughh..I just really do not know what to do.
And yes, I am very, very careful with everything I say to these guys. Yes, they know what town I live in, which I really do live in. But, I do not use my own picture, I do not use my own name, I make absolutely everything up about me, etc. The only thing I worry about is if I happen to talk to a computer-wiz and they find a way to track my address on the computer and find my real address. And I've actually been thinking about that a lot.
Any advice on what I should do? And yes, I know you all are going to say that I never should have done this in the first place. I know, I know, I know...it was stupid, very stupid. But, I'm going to be doing this whether I'm 18 or 30 or whatever, this is what I want to do with my life; catch people who want to hurt children.
Oh yeah, if anyone knows of anyway I can turn them in somehow I know a couple of their names, towns they live in, even the street one of them lives on, etc. I checked them both out on the sex offender list and neither are on it (using the info. they gave me, of course, I really don't know if it's true or not)..looked them both up on a people finder search thing and now at least ONE of them is lying because their age is different than the age they gave me. And I also know one of them signed up on a "teen girl lovers" website, which is just plain creepy! If anyone wants to help me, if you live in California, for example, I will try and get as much information from them as I can. I have all chat logs saved, etc I can send those, pictures, etc. I just don't really want my parents to find out, but if I can find a way to get these guys off of my hands and into someone who is more..well..professional, I will stop talking to them and will feel a lot better knowing that someday justice will be served.
Thanks so much guys and go ahead and lecture, I suppose I deserve it.



