Smoking marijuana 50 times is going to be a lot to overcome, because it's well out of the realm of experimentation. BIG has to ask, if this is your "dream job", why do it once, much less 50 times? There are many officers on this board for whom this wasn't their "dream jobs", yet they found themselves interested in law enforcement, joined law enforcement, yet have not partaken in an illegal drug once, again, much less 50 times.
BIG SEXY says - "When life hands you lemons, take those same lemons & smash them into lifes' ugly *** mugg!! That'll learn'em to give you lemons."